cried watching this mv. its a really touching one.
This is my temporary Home
It’s not where I belong
Windows and rooms that I’m passin’ through
This was just a stop,on the way To where I’m going
I’m not afraid because I know this was
My temporary home
如果说这世界 不够完美不够好
一定是在等我们 亲手给它变得美好
就像爱 看起来 会那么少 一定是
在等我们一起勇敢的寻找一起找到
一片片落叶 为开出个花园
手牵手捱过整个冬天
每只蝴蝶 为了飞
为了翩翩起舞 先做一个茧
最美海岸线 总是要很蜿蜒
才足够让人忘返流连
你的身边 要不是
比天边还遥远 勇气怎么出现
当我终于住进你的心里
分享同一个世界
身后错过痛过漫长情节
都变甜美
像是大雨过后晴朗的天 宽阔而耀眼
每个黎明都 需要有夜成全
往回看每兜一个圈
每一条迂回的曲线
都是为爱上你必须留的伏线
只有我了解 这幸福感觉
美得值得去付出一切
能够遇见你认识你喜欢你爱上你
感谢我每滴眼泪
只有你明白 我有多珍贵
好得值得你为我改变
请你继续温柔 交换我 灿烂笑容
一天一天 到永远那一天
makes me think of the slippery slope effect
and from there think of the butterfly effect
and from there think of butterflies
BLEAHHHH
i cant believe its the 3rd week of school. time is zooming past at a speed faster than previous years.
i realised i like learning new stuff. but i dont like testing old stuff. its fun to find out more about things u didnt know about previously. and thats probably why i enjoy most of my lectures and tutorials, especially chem H3 now 
at least up till now i am still enjoying. i like learning about things i am interested in. its like reading fairytales when i was young. u read because you want to find out what is happening, not because you want to test yourself about the plot after that.
i am enjoying staying back in school to do work more and more.its quite strange actually since i used to wonder how people concentrate with all the noise around. however every time i stay back to do work, it will turn out quite productive, even though there may be noise pollution, like the cheers coming from orientation… maybe i should stay back more? going at 4+ is a bonus with other incentives like empty bus and a no-jam journey
its T1W5. exactly 3 weeks from now, i will be living in woodlands. if it isnt for some specific reasons, i will like to stay in amk for the rest of my life in singapore. wonder how will life be in woodlands? i suppose having a family with you is the most important thing, no matter where you are. but for the first few days at least, its going to feel like the whole family is staying at some temporary hotel room or something. i will miss ang mo kio for sure 
and 74… and my bus mates.
contrary to what i felt last friday, i am quite thankful for the weekend. no urge to want weekend to be sch days anymore. the past week has been a busy week chionging tutorials and coping with an additional subject on the list. weekend will be a nice break even though there are stuff to do.
up till now, i really really like h3 chem enjoyed going through the concepts and playing with the model thingy during tutorial. if this interest manage to sustain throughout the course, then i will be 90% sure that i am taking chemistry in university. considering a double degree but not sure whether it will be manageable.
7G, being 7G, did a crazy thing today again. changed into tshirts and pretended we were C1s participating in OG games. it was really quite embarrassing at times, especially when the real OGs walked by, or looked at us. it was nice though, “going through” orientation once again. when we went to the hall, i sat at the balcony watching them play the snatching caps game. couldnt help feeling sad at that point in time. it was wonderful to see the C1s enjoying their orientation, all of them looking so happy. i was thinking we could never go back to that time again, when we were C1s, playing to our hearts content. i didnt believe that one year would actually make such a great difference, but now i do.
the past week was so busy that i didnt really have time to think about some stuff properly. which is a good thing in a way, seeing how bear was thinking TOO MUCH. being busy sort of prevents me from being emo. i dont really mind being this busy the coming week too xD
crashing math remedial tmr and meeting at eco on sunday again. the rest of the time will be spent doing work. i am feeling quite productive already
shux as i was about to start typing this i bit my tongue >< pain pain pain
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kae i supposed i am finally settling in into the "school-mode"… for the past one week plus, i have been in this (EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE MY TONGUE IS BLEEDING!!!!)
[afk]
the bleeding stopped…
yeah as i was saying, the past week has been sort of "half-holiday, half-sch". not much stress and i still can go home slack the night away. but i guess the commencement of H3 chem sort of threw me back into reality. the fact that school has started and tests are coming -.- tutorials waiting to be done and notes waiting to be mugged… i guess now is really non-stop all the way to a lvl sigh…
H3 chem was quite interesting. the lecturer very amusing xD hope my passion (if theres any to start with) and interest will last throughout the course.
going back to my tutorials …
and my tongue hurts T.T
looking at mr happy always makes me happy, no matter what i was feeling before that. pple emo-ing should try looking at him more often
i have been feeling very happy lately. no idea why. maybe i have recovered fully from that emo period after promo. that was one of the 低潮期 in my life, though not a lot of people noticed. there was the tendency to emo when i was alone. but now i am entirely back to my happy self or maybe i have been back for a long time but i didnt have the time to fully experience it. tha level of happiness is quite extreme actually. i can even complete my tutorials happily, something which i havent been doing for a long time.
love the feeling and hope it will last as long as it can
somehow it was a very smooth-sailing day today. started off with gp essay assignment. wont say its an enjoyment because well, it is obviously not -.- but nothing bad came out of it either the bad part will probably come when the papers are returned xD bio lecture was in LT, and as usual it was freaking cold… you know if the school raise the temp of the aircon in places like audi and LT by a few degrees, maybe they can save some money off the electricity bill.
math tutorial passed like a breeze. i love doing maclaurin’s!!!! so fun to see the expressions being simplified to the max xD went to see bacteria during break. heh ours was awesome with the colonies growing in the right places. this is my first time having such nice results. well we only did two rdt prac, but still i was so happy xD
isyf pple were in the canteen when we went down for break. talked to pple whom i have not talked to for a long time. leona and bear it was good catching up. saw melissa and jiaying too!!!
chem tutorial was the usual… uh can i say peaceful? nothing much happened, which is better than something bad happening though. spent around one hour in the classroom listening to music with a few classmates and enjoying the conversation. jasmine wasnt supposed to talk though xD
crashed math remedial after that. contrary to what happened the last time i crashed, i actually did some work. feeling very productive after 3h of integration o.o at times like this i enjoy doing math the “math-mode” or something like that, quoted from xinyu xD
SAT coming up tmr (SAT on sat haha) and nyce meeting the day after.
H3 starting next week. which means i have to start going home at 6pm, which i REALLY REALLY REALLY dont like >< i just saw the subject tests schedule thing on smb. my next test coming up will be H3 chem test -.- first time knowing the test date before i even officially start my lessons…
but anw yup today was a very good day for me. not the alot of good news kind, but the very calm and enjoyable kind hope the rest of the year will be something like this, though i seriously doubt so.
the first school week of 2010 just ended. i wanted to write a post to sum up 2009 but somehow just couldnt get myself to start. maybe i shall do one soon. see first xD first week of sch didnt really feel like how it should feel like. you know, the sch reopening feeling. i used to get so excited (though i dont think its really excitement) the night before first day of sch that i took a long time to get to sleep. other than the fact that seniors were gone, school felt exactly the same. quite like the feeling though. a more spacious place without seniors and juniors. imagine the canteen when juniors come in next week.
my new year resolution is not to sleep in class throughout the year. and no sms-ing in class either, though the sleeping in class part is more important for me. and right now, up till this moment, i have not broken any yet the past week has been quite enjoyable. its nice to be with the class again, attending lessons, going lunch and walking out of sch together. i think i am quite out of the mind by saying this… but still, for a moment i was quite sad that weekend is coming… i wouldnt have mind attending sch tmr too
i was keeping last year’s christmas cards just now. its quite interesting to see how people choose cards. usually when i choose the cards myself, i will tend to imagine the reaction fo the person receiving it xD i have to say i was surprised to receive some of them since i never expect any cards from those who sent them. i like glen’s card alot!! butterflies sure look alot nicer when they are made from paper and u can be assured that they wont fly directly into you… its quite late, especially when even new year is over, but still thank you for all the cards!!! and the thought that comes with them
juniors coming in next week. cant wait to see some of them. i have no idea why the sch wans them to wear hongzi instead of jc uniform for ip activity like what we did last year. like what cheryl said, they will be a sea of white. one good thing is that it will be easy to spot them xD
and i will have a post to round up 2009. soon..
